ike a definitive crack.
I looked at her face with eyes full of old and new tears, and for the first time in years I didn’t try to be proper.
“Can you at least shut up today?” I yelled at him.
My voice echoed off the wood-paneled walls, against the wreaths, against the frozen guests, against the image of my dead children who suddenly seemed to observe the scene like a mute accusation.
Miriam took two steps so quick I barely saw them coming.
He slapped me with brutal force, a sharp, perfectly calculated blow that turned my face and filled my mouth with a metallic taste.
Before I could react, he grabbed my hair.
His hand closed on my head with an intimate, obscene violence, very different from the clumsy brutality of someone who loses control.
No, she knew exactly how to hurt.
He pulled me down and slammed my forehead against the shiny edge of one of my children’s coffins.
The blow pierced me like a white lightning bolt.
I saw lights.
I felt my skull buzzing, my scalp burning, my knees buckling, and then his breath in my ear with that devoted viper voice he always reserved for serious threats.
—Shut up or you’ll end up in there.
I haven’t forgotten that phrase.
Not because it was original.
